"As long as I can Remember I have had Self confidence issues. I struggled with my weight from young adulthood on, and never really felt "pretty" or like I met societies standards of beautiful. At the age of 25 I had reached a low in my life. I was focused solely on what I was NOT. I was not thin, I was not in a relationship, I was not a mother, ect... At this point I decided to have a weight loss surgery to assist with my long term struggle. Over about a year and a half I lost about 115 lbs. However the weight loss came with its own set of struggles. I still did not look at myself and see "beautiful". Instead I continued to pick myself and my body apart. Because of my inability to love myself, I found myself in a relationship with a man who mistreated me. I stayed in that situation for far to long, thinking that he was truthful in the hurtful and unkind things he said. After one of the many arguments we got into, he put me in the hospital with a broken arm. While there I found out that I was pregnant (something I was told was not a possibility for me). I didn't even know how to take this news. Now looking back I know that my son saved my life. He gave me the strength I needed to escape that abuse once and for all. I had not at that point valued my life enough to leave, but luckily I valued his. After escaping years of physical and mental abuse I decided it was time to throw away the scale I had obsessed over for so long, and change the way I looked at myself. I slowly but surely learned to love myself for who I was and love the way I look even if it wasn't the "normal" beautiful. Every stretch mark on my stomach is a reminder that I was able to carry a baby that I was not supposed to be able to carry. Every dimple in my skin was a reminder of the struggle I met and overcame. I started to look at what some would consider an "imperfection" as something that made me unique. Honestly, being a spokes model for Emerald studios would be an amazing opportunity. I would love for other women who may not think of themselves as beautiful to be able to look at me and see that beautiful is how you see yourself. Beautiful is how you feel, and every woman, no matter their height/weight/relationship status ect is beautiful in her own way. And that part of feeling beautiful is embracing yourself AS YOU ARE and loving yourself for all the good you possess. I also hope that some day, my story can help someone else who is in in a terrible situation find the strength to remove themselves from it. The photo I am attaching is one from the only photo shoot I have ever done. I did it for my wonderful and amazing husband who has been so so patient, loving and kind. He is a truly magnificent person and treats me like the queen every woman should feel like.
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